Wrecked...

Its not that I'm out of things to say...well, at least, not for this time...

I've been a nervous wreck this past week...was just done with my violin exams (which I'll share about it soon enough)...and seeing my students through their piano exams as well... now, THAT was tedious...

I've got one more final exam and a humongous arranging project to go...

Date due of this project : 15th August 08...

Being the extreme workaholic that I am, I still did managed to have some time to spare which I could have very well used it to blog...every time I place my hands at the keypad to start typing...a heavy pang of guilt rush through my veins...crippling my thoughts and whatsoever I've planned to write... the guilt of putting aside my important work, for a short high seems inexcusable... I freak out...that I may not have sufficient time to finish what I've started off...

Mind you, I'm actually done with 80% of my project, with 5 days to go till the date-line... I had to start early, as this project of mine, is slightly over my capability...slightly ambitious...but I'm giving it a shot anyway...It gives me a challenge, which I strive on...and I have learn so much in the process...So, I am ALMOST done...the 20% leftovers are the ones that is going to demand reserved energy, which I have completely exhausted...yet, my freakish nature just doesn't allow me to sit still until I am officially done with it...so you can imagine the restless mode I am in...

I'm now considering two options in my hand :

Option A : I can even out my arranging workload throughout the coming 5 days, so that I can breathe easily...I can sort out my thoughts better...and hopefully, my thinking cap will be fully functional....

Option B : I can slog my arse out for the coming 2 days, and be over and done with the project...so that I will be able to get it off my chest...and breathe even easier...

Just so you know, I've not been sleeping much lately...and even during my sleep, I've these weird dreams that get me all so worked out, that I feel much more tired upon waking up...so much so, after waking up in the morning, I've got to sleep AGAIN for an hour or so...just to recuperate from the lethargicness, and even it out...

Hence, Option B sounds awfully tempting to me at the moment...God knows, I'm really dying for a good sleep...and that can only happen once I have placed my project in the hands of my lecturer, and good riddance to it!!