Just Off My Chest...

• I am contemplating, if I should straighten my hair or just let it stay naturally wavy...I am aware that my hair would be more fried than it is, with all the chemical it will have to endure...at least they are fuss-free...natural wave requires me to put hair styling cream, so it doesn't mess up...too much work for a hassle-free gal like me...
• I am wondering...how come, competition is given more priority than compassion...for the sake of climbing the corporate/social ladder, people are willing to stab you in the back...whatever happen to "Let's hold hands and go up the ladder together" motto?
• I wish I can differentiate clearly between "learning to accept" and "giving up"...there are some things that I'd stop pursuing, because I was "learning to accept" that I can never have the guts to stand up in front of people to perform...some friends told me that "learning to accept" was mere excuses...in reality, I'm "giving up"...now, I'm just confused...
• I need some hugs...NOW...am missing my boyfriend's terribly...
  
• I really need a break from work...having been putting too much energy into my work...I'm getting emotionally exhausted all the time...
• I miss the sun...its been humid, and stuffy...yet cloudy...for these couple of days...no rain...nor sun either...
  

And the last shout-out...

I'M FED UP WITH ALL THE CLOWNS GOVERNMENING MY COUNTRY, AND TURNING IT INTO AN ART OF CHAOS!!!

Too Much Information

This tag thingy is obviously getting out of hand...these are 'getting to know me more' type of 'questionaire'...and I do not know anything that readers would want to know less of...but anyway, here goes :-

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Do I have to answer this dreaded question??...Ok, so its my guess that I won't be getting married anytime soon...so probably in my 30's...and if I'm not married by then, I'll probably drag the first hobo I can find and do it Las Vegas style...

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
If someone buys me a tour ticket, it will be a 'Round-the-world' tour, of course...yes, that is greed taking over...and I have no shame...

3. If you could have one word that’ll describe your mood right now, what would it be?
Excited...Nothing beats the adrenaline rush, of getting to play Counter-Strike again (after a freaking 8 year fast...just hope I don't get that addicted again)...and killing the baddies...so what if I died a million times...I am practising!!...

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Hmmm...tough question...so, yes...without money, we wouldn't be able to purchase our dream home, go on vacations...which will somehow play a role in nurturing happiness...but so what if we can purchase all these but have no love??...Can I stand in between for this question??

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
*in a cute, baby voice*...I wish for World peace...BLEH!!!...nah, that is too 'beauty pageant' talk...as un-patriotic as I may sound in my other post, I would actually wish that Malaysian society will come out of its 'third-world' mentality...and no more spoon-feeding...at least, that would make my job as a music teacher so much enjoyable...

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Are you kidding me??...Everything that we are dependent on, is purchased by money...so you tell me, is ANYONE able to survive without money?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My family and friends. And of course, my laptop, my fingers (literally my bread&butter), my storybooks, my music books, my DVDs, my CDs, my comics…

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Demand that my parents stop working...and enjoy the 'harvest!'...get myself a complete set of Roland keys, and mixing equipments...Buy over UCSI, and detonate it!!!...

9. How would you describe the person u like *at the moment*?
Goofy when time calls for it...which makes me laugh...at other times, a great and caring boyfriend...wouldn't ask for more...*grin*...

10. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Man, will this be long...

• definitely not scrawny...nor lighter than me in weight...
• enjoys a debate/discussion or two
• respects my parents...and me...
• respects what I believe in...he need not agree...that's okay...but don't brush me aside either...
• treats me special...xD
• flexible ego...
• not sexist...
• Optimistic...to balance the pessimistic part of me...
  

11. If you could rewind time would you?
Who wouldn't??...I'd fix me a lot then...

12. What’s your ambition?
Bull-doze Malaysian's politicians down, boost up culture aware-ness, control the world and the world economy ala Adolf Hitler and President Mao...

13. Are you emotional?
You can bet on it!!...when it happens, I go the extreme...if not, I am as if emotionally castrated...

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
To be at peace with myself...

15. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
*groan*...just ONE??...I would love and forgive myself more...but at the moment, the one mistake I wish to undo...is to NOT participate in this tag...

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Thinking too much...worrying about things that do not deserve my attention...and closing an eye on things that need my attention most...

17. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
Speak in public...socialize...I am happy just staying at home with my good friends...but that ain't good...I am limiting myself to endless knowledge...

18. Why are you feeling like this?
Like what?...is this a following question from Question #17?...well, first of all...I am taking a break...I have received many blows of disappointment when it came to friendship issues...I guess in a way, I am trying to protect myself from anymore hurts...yet, in this mode of withdrawal, I have also learn to appreciate my space and treasure it...

19. LINA'S QUESTION: Why am I not asleep?
Erm, it is just closing 10am at night...like Lina would say...we musicians have just started our day...Good morning, everyone!!...besides, 10am sleeping hour are for babies...

20. MY TURN: Do you know how to operate Sibelius software?
Cz I don't...and I have this dumb mid-term assignment that I have to pass up...and I can't find the button that allows me to do drum notations!!...and I need help!!...*google searches "Sibelius software, Urgent Help"*

I have decided to refrain from tagging anyone, less I :
a) get savagely beaten up;
b) get killed;
c) am cruelly tagged by a revenged tagger...and we wouldn't want that now, would we?

But if she would so kindly answer Question #20, when she is free, I would be most grateful...but as for others, feel free to 'be tagged' by me...if you so happen to be running out of topics to post in your blog...*grin*

Unvoluntarily Tagged

Just because this bugger is my friend...and I owe her a HUGE favour...I shall forgive her for taking my life apart, by tagging me...and shall fulfill her request...

The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 5 people and posts their names, than goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

What was I doing 10 years ago (1998)?
1) trying to figure out my sexuality...yes, I was such a tom-boy, there are people (who shall remain anonymous) have asked me time and time again, if I was a lesbian...and yes, it is confirmed that I am a heterosexual...my mum was glad to know...if not, she would have screamed Bloody Mary..
2) playing truant in school..
3) ringing people's doorbell...and running away before they answer the door...so what, you have your naughty moments too...
4) screaming Backstreet Boys...man, was I immature!!...
5) practicing rebellious-ness, and driving my mum nuts...

5 Things on my to-do list today
1) survive an hour and half of boring lecture...
2) survive my blardy students who will most probably not have done a single assignment throughout the two week break...
3) resist the temptation of tearing my hair out while doing my compositions and arrangements...I am balding now, which is not a good sign...thank God for my thick hair...
4) Fill my car up...my baby is thirsty...
5) wash my hair...

5 Snacks I enjoy
1) Cachos with thousand island dressing
2) paper sea-weeds
3) tooth-decaying, and weight gaining marshmallows...
4) DARK BELGIUM chocs...
5) sugar-coated Oreos with dumped in fresh milk...

5 Things I would do if I were a multi-billionaire
1) Hire a mafia to eliminate carcasses, namely Baby Vellu
2) Buy an island and retire there...
3) Buy the Federal Bank Reserve, and become a multi-zillionaire...
4) I'd get myself G3-/SG-1 Sniper Rifle and finish off Vellu myself...save mafias the trouble...
5) Purchase a Stradivarius violin and a Steinway Grand...which if I did, I would not have the money to execute any of the above...

5 of my bad habits
1) keeping lose change...my heavy pocket full of coins, is weighing my pants down...
2) doggy-ear my books...
3) workaholic extreme...
4) switching off snooze buttons and not waking up...the sleeping beast that I am...
5) checking for cellulites...

5 places I have lived in:
1) Paradise Bay Hotel, Penang
2) Toyota Corona 1.6 (1982), Number Plate :WAS2754
3) University practice rooms
4) 10, Persiaran Bandar Baru Tambun
5) National Library

5 people I tag:
Anyone who is as insane as I am, to be doing a tag at this ungodly hour...

3 Things

have not done much meme in these couple of months, so I'd thought I'd entertain myself by doing one now...(though that does not mean that anyone should start tagging me now...that is an inhumane and cruel thing for anyone to go through)...

3 Things Tag

1. 3 Things that scares me: Ronald McDonald; people with unnatural insertions (too much silicon, botoxed lips, etc); Lorry drivers...
2. 3 People who makes me laugh: Russell Peters; Jeffrey Dunham; Bill Cosby...
3. 3 Things I love: my Motorola L7 phone; my Toyota Corona 1.6 (1982); my jammies...
4. 3 Things I hate: being nagged at; ego-headed males who thinks females should remain illiterate; shopping for shoes...
5. 3 Things I don't understand: fast spoken Hokkien/Mandarin; why the price of the Motorola L7 have got to drop so freakin' fast; HTML...
6. 3 Things on my desk: a stained cup of coffee; computer; an autobiography book of Mao Tze Tung...
   
7. 3 Things I'm doing right now; blogging; watching Top Gear car show (it is hillariously funny, highly recommended if you should need a good laugh); trying to convince myself that 4 minutes is all I need to sweep, mop floor and wash my hair..
8. 3 Things I wanna do before I die: travel to every corner of the world; swim with the dolphins; watch Pat Metheny play live...
9. 3 Things I can do: eat-watch TV-answer phone-study-talk to my mum all at the same time (about the only multi-tasking I'm capable of); speed read; dance like a fridge...
10. 3 Things I can't do: Multi-task; read to children (the pace is too slow); dance properly...
11. 3 Things I think you should listen to: Mongolian and Tibetan chants; Arturo Sandoval's trumpet solo lines; any Gospel music...
12. 3 Things you should never listen to: Any Britney/Lindsay/Hillary/Scarlet CDs; Techno music; my singing...
13. 3 Things I'd like to learn: Photography; Rock-climbing; Scuba-diving...
14. 3 Favourite food: Herbal soup; Italian pasta; Cheese cake (any flavour)
15. 3 Beverages I drink regularly: H20; Coffee; 100 Plus...
16. 3 shows I watched as a kid: Fresh Prince of Bel Air; Care Bears, Transformers (Note: I still think I am a kid)
17. 3 people I'm tagging: LINA!! (Once she is done with her performance, that is...); Boodyboy too...and you...(if you are bored...like I am...*grin*)

Pet Peeves

People who...

...thinks its a glorifying sight to see the contents of one's food being bitten and broken down to bits...Not me!!!...Close 'yer mouth!!...

...go to great lengths to get your attention...and upon receiving it..they say "Nevermind"...

...act as if they are God's gift to human kind...come on, get a life!!...

...get of the escalators EXTREMELY slow...except for the elderly, of course...Hello!!!...if you didn't realize...there are people right behind you...if you don't get off quick, we might run into you...

...smoke right in front of you...Listen...I don't smoke...but I don't mind you smoking yourself to the brink of death...I un-willingly expose myself, as a second-hand smoker, knowing the risk of it...and I am not complaining...I am willing to be patient...but damn you if you smoke right in my face, I will personally give you a piece of my mind...literally...you know the health risk when smoking, and you made a personally choice to face it...but not me...I didn't sign up for this...and you're NOT taking me down with you...

...complains on and on...about how atrociously out of tune it sounds, when a grade 5 violin student is practising...guys, we sympathize with you...hearing a 'chicken squeal'...but if you can, please bear with us...you think listening to one practice on the violin is painful??...try being the student practicing on the violin instead...heesh...at least you guys can opt to walk out of the room anytime you want...

...stand in front of the elavators, hence blocking the way out...it is so hard for people to realize that in order to get IN those elavators, one has to first make way for people to get OUT??...

...queue in really long lines...then upon reaching the counter...take another 5 minutes to think about what to order...They had all the time in the world to make a choice, while waiting for their turn...but they had to wait till that SIGNIFICANT moment...to hold the line...and take up our time...

...speeds up...just to over-take you...secure their space in front of you...and speed up no more...if anything...they slow down...

...allows their young kids to cry...and cry...and cry...through out the whole 3 hour journey on a bus to Ipoh...

...let their young kids out of their cages...and grab a french fry from a stranger...and the parents actually thinks its cute...

...don't turn on the signal lights, when cutting you off...or when doing a turn...if the signal button is spoiled...roll down the window and make hand signs...I'm too young to die...so back off!!!...

...talk aloud in movie theaters...sister, if I wanted to know the story about your life, I'd ask...but at the moment...any movie on screen would be more interesting compared to your current life...so, if you please...SHUT UP!!!...

...just don't understand instructions..."10 items or less" counter...it means...a counter that would provide its services for people that has 10 items to buy...or maybe 9 items...in order te ordeal of waiting would be less painful...get it??...well, if you had 13 items...and you choose to ignore the sign...I can forgive you...but TWO TROLLEYS of items??!!!...25 items altogether, and the offender thinks its funny...well, I don't...it defeats the purpose of having a "10 items or less" counter, doesn't it??...

...and many more, which I'm unable to cover at the moment...those will have to be saved for later...gotta practice on my violin first...