Perpetual Sickness...

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me,
I'm gonna eat some worms.
Big fat juicy ones, Eensie weensy squeensy ones,
See how they wiggle and squirm.

Chomp off their heads and squeeze out the juice
And throw their tails away
Nobody knows how I survive
On worms three times a day...

I learn that song back when I was a kid...kindergarten teacher taught me...sang it throughout the 2 hour ride for a holiday, and drove my parents crazy...taught MY students how to sing it...and play it on the piano...and THEY drove THEIR parents crazy...ah, those naughty, naughty devils in disguise...all in a days work, isn't it?...*grin*

My body sure does hate me for some reason...Every single time I think I am about to recover, my body decides to pick up the same illness...sometimes with more vengeance...annoying, really...Throat feels raw now...my nose is blocked...and it does not help, the fact that it is still Chinese New Year...which means I am not able to smell the sweet aroma of my dad's cooking...and it also means that the majority of the Taoist people are still burning joss sticks, and paper money...the thick smoke is starting to settle down and merge with my mucus...(imagine you having a stuffed nose, and an ass-hole of a guy, smokes his cigarette and blows on your face...I would have punched him, I tell ya)...
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Well, just to describe my Chinese New Year in a nutshell...

We didn't get to enjoy our usual Chinese New Year feast...grandma claimed to have lost one of the three pairs of shoes she bought...and has turned the whole house upside down to find it, and still failed...caused a bit of tension in the family, as she was consistently muttering accusations that one of us must have taken/stolen them...Dad finally defused it, by taking her to buy a new pair of shoes...spent a day or two hunting for that specific model...drove my dad insane...finally told my grandma, to either be happy with a different pair of shoe, or to forget about it...she chose to be happy...unneeded pain in the neck...

Grandma insisted that we should all start our cooking a few days ahead, despite having been told time and time again, that it is best to keep the food fresh...too much stress and pressure, we felt...completely unnecessary...so my dad decided to abandon the cooking mission...we all had KFC for reunion dinner instead...and Pizza Hut the night after...
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Grandma got mugged twice in a week, at the same spot and about the same time...once before the CNY...and once after...she lost quite a bit of money and some jewelry during the first time...but did not sustain injury...second time, not so lucky...first robbery, she claimed the thief took her house-keys, which we then promptly changed the locks for our house...only to find out later, that she actually left her house-keys back at home...the second robbery, she remembered her house-keys this time, which she placed in her hand-bag...and that got stolen...so we had to change locks for the second time...
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Referring to a previous post I wrote...the person I'm referring to...let's call her *Charmaine...I didn't get a chance to settle things with her...she decided that by not making time for her, I have hurt her...and therefore, she has decided to send me an SMS in the wee hours of the morning...to cut off the friendship...just like that...I responded by sending her a message, expressing my disappointment in her selfishness...and she begged to have our friendship back...it made me feel like a 6 year old kid...were friendships that cheap, that it can be taken apart and mended through an SMS??...I decided to stick to her decision of cutting the friendship...cause I just feel this emotional burden, one that hangs on my shoulders all the time...and I just don't need that right now...I think, if she doesn't respect my need for privacy and having other friends...it would be difficult for me to accomodate her...so it happening now, can prove to be a good thing after all...

*Note : name changed to protect privacy...
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Maternal grannie fell down a day before CNY...had an open wound on her head...so it required some stitches...fractured her left wrist too...plus the fact that she doesn't not have the strongest set of bones, its gonna take a while to heal...
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Paternal grandpa seems to be losing weight drastically...my last visit back in Dec '08, he weighed about 52kgs...and looked much healthier, despite me being aware that it is merely a deception...it was his steroid meds intake, that made his face as round as a moon, and as smooth as a baby's buttocks...now that the doctor has removed him from steroid meds, he has sunk...literally...to a 43kg...that makes it a 9kg weight loss in two months...makes me fear, at times...that he may not make it through the year...*touchwood*...

Just reminds you, doesn't it...how precious life can be...one may have the whole world in his hands, all the money he/she can spare...but nobody can make it past mortality...a good knock on the head, to remind us...that though at times we act and think we're gods...we aren't...
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Am facing some changes in my life...certain cross-roads...need to re-think my priorities...make a check-list...most importantly, I need to sort out my thoughts...I've been almost ignoring every problem hurled at me the past week, thanks to CNY...now I find that I am all jumbled up...can't seem to focus...darn...