Friday, January 11, 2008

Appreciating the Space

Today...for the first few times, rare ones, as it is...I have done something that was totally rewarding...

For today...I did...nothing...yup...accomplished nothing...

Well...not TOTALLY nothing...now, that I come to think of it...I did practice my graduation piece 'Wildlife'...with my boyfriend...and we had a tough nut to crack...especially on the rhythm...but other than that, I spent the whole day walking...window shopping, both in Leisure Mall...and MidValley...ah, I did do a couple of hours of beautiful reading...

Yes, I do allow myself to indulge in this 'personal time' once in a while...after all...I am working 4 days a week now...classes 4 days a week too...and the rest, I spent practicing my piano (both jazz and classical...I'm preparing for my LTCL piano Dip. at the moment)...and my violin as well...my timetable is usually so packed...that my school mates, those who are patient enough, that is...would have to booked me a week in advance...some have already given up...even one of my dear friends has commented that "It is easier to book an appointment with the Prime Minister than it is to book one with Emily..."...Yes...that is a sad case, I've got to admit...I enjoy every working minute...yet, I hunger for a good empty slot...like...TODAY!!!!....

Classes canceled...and I decided to work myself...in a leisure walk...and for those who knows me...Emily Goh rarely shops...for shoes and clothings, that is...books, she does not flinch at all...but shoes and clothings...you have got to shop with her, to know what pain in the neck she is...totally zero fashion sense...capable of wearing a pyjamas to college...(I only tried that ONCE...okay...no biggie)...yet, one have got to understand as well...how frustrating it could be for her to shop for shoes...can you imagine, stepping into every shoe shop...only to know that there is no shoe that is smaller than a size 4??...and yes, so she wears a size 3...but that is no excuse to publicly humiliate her by sending her to the KIDS department, is there??...come on...give it a break and save her some dignity, you know...so she was 'blessed' with one of the tinniest of feet and hand...big deal....

But yes, thank God...today...for once, she found a pair of shoes that she could wear...it was slightly big, no doubt about that...but she has just about given up, asking for a size 3...its comfortable enough, thats what is important...just make sure that she is not climbing a hill on that...or she will be standing on feet of a pregnant lady, that's for sure...swells all over...

Ah...the insanity creeps back tomorrow...my hands will be full with the handling of rascals, that parents unleash upon me...to a certain extend, I'm okay with that...I rather take this, as a form of escapism...then to have to handle emotional frustrations and stress that overwhelms me at times...when I'm emotionally frustrated with the happenings in college...work and violin/piano practice becomes my sanctuary...and things does not seem so bad...at least, work and practices tires my brain, as to keep my heart from messing with it...so I need not think of what troubles me most...until it is time to do so...